Dalam tangis ada gembira

     Sangat tak seronok bangun pagi dengan linangan air mata. 

Sangat tak seronok bangun pagi dengan lidah kelu tak terkata apa. 

Sangat tak seronok bangun pagi dengan seribu tanda tanya.

Lagi tak seronok bangun menghadapi kenyataan yang menyakitkan.

Tapi alhamdulillah, ada pengubat hati.

Nurul Syahidah, Ya dia!

Dia bagitau aku dapat 3.73 utk sem lepas. 

Alhamdulillah..

Dia jugak meredakan air mata, lidah yang tak terkata..

Tapi tanda tanya dan realiti yang pahit aku kena telan jua.

Mujur ada sedikit kegembiraan hari ni.

Aku akan usaha lagi! 

YES! fOr my mum, I will~

hatiku berkata : baru tau camni rasa dapat DL. alhamdulillah. syukur

Gedebuk gedebak

     Gedebuk gedebak hati ai nih. Minggu depan dah nak kuar result. Ape cer result gua der? Haii ingat time study week, exam je ke jantung gedebuk gedebak? Time cuti ni lagi la.. Tunggu result pulak. Kalau ok yeay syukur alhamdulillah. Kalau tak? HUKSSS -.-''


    Kawan2 dari u lain yg dah dapat result semua pun gempak2. Ada 3.8, 3.75, 3.67. HAAA. Pandai gler. Korang makan buku gamaknya? huhu. Tahniah la korang. Sementara korang enjoy dengan result gempak2 tu, biar ai sambung gedebuk gedebak jantung ni ea..

hatiku berkata: dup dap dup dap... test jantung. 

Gigi rabbit itu

     Hish ai kenan betul rabbit teeth dia tu. haha. Well, aku kan memang suka tengok gigi orang .hahaha and aku rasa lelaki yang gigi ada slack2 sket ni comel lah. aummm! haha.


     Well, bila tengok vanilla coklat for the first time, terus ai terjatuh hati gedebuk gedebak! haha. Tenung punya tenung baru lah perasan eh2, dia ni aiman mentor kan? haaa kau. Bila tengok2 kat internet, betul lah dia! Time dia kalah mentor dulu dah agak da. No worries muka bole jual. haha.


      Lepas ni bole la berlakon laki. Confirm ade job sebab bukan takat muka je tapi bakat pun ada. Maybe bakat lakonan dia lebih daripada nyanyian? Lagi satu dia ni tinggi ala2 model gitu. Kalau badan bole lagi ketak2 sket lagi awesome nihhh! haha.


      Apepun, all the best lah dekat u wahai Aiman Hakim Ridza. Ai suka kalau u dengan Izara tu tapi katanya dah ade girlfriend? eh?

hatiku berkata: sukanyaaaaa gigi rabbit u. haha

After 2 years

After 2 years, I'm still here. Waiting but you never come. Waiting but you never know. Waiting but you never care. 2 years can be a very short time for someone but, it can be a longgg time too. You're not just walked away. You built  wall. You left  empty space. You killed me inside. Hey! Why don't you just kill me like literally? muahaha. It is easy to say 'hey move on la'. But, it's not easy to do the talking. It's just hard. Yup maybe i've move a bit. But only A BIT.I'm still moving but, it's just pathetically super slow and super hurt. Anyone? Make it faster. hehe

Twenty and twelve

      Yeah, i'm 20 years old on this 2012. Pretty old huh? huhu. I'm twenty in terms of age, responsibilities, mind, bla bla bla. But, i'm also twelve.I'm being monitored. I have to tell all my plans. Where i'm going, what i do, etc. I miss my friends. I missed lots of fun time with them. Never there for their open houses. Never there for birthday celebration. Never there to have fun. Never there to share the happinesss. NEVER ! I'm stucked here. Surrounded by palm trees, no internet access, pathetic line. Doing all the same thing again and again every single day! Not connected to the outside world except yeah a few friends. Sometimes, i just cry without any reason. Tears need no reason to fall down. haha. So, yeah. I'm twenty and i'm twelve.